Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Giving



 Something Spectacular
 
To commemorate my 50th birthday on December 7th 2012, for a long time I had been making plans to give myself something spectacular, a landmark event like running my 50th marathon in my 50th state, or getting a magnificent expansive tattoo, or traveling somewhere far away and exotic like New Zealand.

Rather Unremarkable

But life had other plans. I haven’t run a marathon, gotten a tattoo or traveled out of my time zone in over two years, and it turns out I spent a good chunk of the actual day I crossed into my next half century on the Ethan Allen crossing from the city of my birth back to the city of my current residence.  For a lover of Vermont, New York, and riding the rails, this was apt activity to be sure, but it was on the whole, rather unremarkable. Yes, the visit that preceded this return was a series of reliably inspiring but hardly noteworthy experiences, true to form for my many happy December trips to NYC, some of which you’ve seen documented in this space. And the day after my birthday I had good sales and conversations at the farmer’s market and a nice dinner out, so, no complaints to register, just a mild sense of having missed out on something big.
 
Shift of Focus

But my birthday falling between one holiday of giving thanks and another of just plain giving gave me the idea to shift my focus from what I could do for me to what I could do for someone else. To make a long story short, my resources being quite limited, I had to give literally of myself, in the form of a donated ponytail following a haircut in New York, and a pint of blood at Rutland’s annual Gift of Life Marathon.  As of this writing I am still working through a short list of things I can give that do not involve money I don’t have. Add to that list giving some long overdue news updates to any of you out there still following this blog.

Imponderable
 
So what have I been up to since my last post last August? It turns out, not much. Photography continues to defer to crocheting as my primary creative endeavor, if only because warm handmade accessories sell better than abstract black and white images. Keeping the bills paid continues to dominate daily thoughts and activities more than I would like, but already there are signs 2013 will be a little less exhausting in this regard. Have I yet decided what this blog is going to be in 2013? Will I ever join Facebook? It’s a little early in the new year for answers to these imponderables. For now, I simply wanted to extend my gratitude to everyone who in one way or another gave me the gift of helping to get me through 2012, one of the most difficult years I’ve known, and am happy to see the end of, and to give you all my best wishes for a happy healthy fulfilling new year. 


 To be continued…

 

27 comments:

  1. How absolutely wonderful to hear your voice again. You are a gift, Gabriella.

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  2. Thank you so much William! I was worried I had been forgotten after such a long silence, but not surprised that you would be the first to banish such doubts. I hope your holidays were warm and bright and that 2013 brings you great joy.

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  3. Forgotten? Not at all. I've missed your blog and am delighted to see you back. Happy birthday!! And William said what I was thinking - you are a gift. I wish you a 2013 full of joy, inspiration, and prosperity.

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    1. JMG - so good to hear from you! Such kind words, an auspicious start to the new year to be sure. All the best to you.

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  4. Can I join the chorus and say that I did a wobbly happy dance to see you back in this space. You are, as William said, a gift - and a joy as well.
    Like you, I was not unhappy to see the taillights of 2012 receding. Hopefully 2013 will be full of love and magic.

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    1. Well, 2013 is already looking much much better thanks to your comment, dear EC! I will do my best to deserve such loyalty! Maybe a promise not to allow entire seasons to pass between posts? Hugs being transmitted your way...

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  5. dear Gabriella, I am very happy to be here with you!
    Your lucidity certainly is the starting point for great future achievements.
    We are together in this boat that takes us to the tides of each day ... learning to navigate, always.

    Congratulations on your birthday, my best wishes for happiness!
    You already have great facts in your story, and everything is to continue ...
    a huge and longing hug!

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    1. Thank you so much, dear Denise! I am very lucky and happy to be able to share this journey with you.

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  6. Forgotten Gaby? No way! No way . . . And indeed, as William said, how wonderful to hear your voice again, if this ever vanished at all. Special people is always present in one way or another, even if in a memory.

    Do never hesitate in thinking, and believing, you are part, an important one, in many people´s life, needless to say, that includes me.
    Yes Denise put it very beautiful, we are together in this boat, and that is so nice :)

    Looking forward to hear your stories, there will be time later, to share ours with you :)

    Warm hugs.

    Alberto.

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    1. Thank you Alberto for confirming to me what is sometimes so hard to believe - that the true connections between people in this world are not about time or distance, but purity of heart, which is eternal and knows no boundaries. best wishes to you for a magnificent year!

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  7. dear Gabriella, just when i was thinking i had to send you good wishes for the new year by e-mail i saw your post,
    i have been thinking about you now and then, missing your interesting posts, wondering how you were doing so... you are not forgotten,


    i read some of T S Elliots lovely lines on another blog yesterday

    For last year's words belong to last year's language
    And next year's words await another voice.
    And to make an end is to make a beginning.

    T S Eliot, Little Gidding

    i wish you a wonderful surprising, creative and beautiful 2013,xx

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    1. Renilde, what a perfect bit of poetry to share as the new year begins! May it hold many blessings for you.

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  8. Hi G/TT - a nice surprise to find you here again when I woke this morning! Welcome back for as long as you feel like it, I liked the hope in the closing words 'to be continued...'

    Happy belated birthday greetings and I hope you find the best of gifts to give soon. We are sweltering and melting ad I look at the headbands and my brain flips. Still - they look great and I hope sales are ticking over. Wishing you a happy, safe and creative 2013, with quiet fulfilment in your endeavours. go well, F

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    1. Dear F - where has the time gone? It seems to me that just yesterday we were preparing for you and Barry to visit and here it is almost a year later! This winter we actually have a "classic" Vermont snowscape after the first big snowfall in many seasons. It's strange to think of you on the opposite side of the world and the seasons! All the best to you and B, from me and B.

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  9. Hi TT/G - like F it was just good to see you out there/here. And a happy beginning to your 51st year of living may it be a good one. Loved the image of the cat looking out at the falling/fallen leaves - a picture of peace. Not being big on Facebook we have not seen much of B's work either. Like you we are working our way around the Facebook issue. Fond memories of Rutland, good conversation, good food and good red. Go well. Pace. B

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    1. Thanks B for the kind words. That cat photo was from several weeks ago when we had a terrific tree-stripping wind storm. In the interest of full disclosure, the better shot was the one I just missed two seconds after the above was taken - when kitty actually placed a curious paw on the window trying to reach the leaf plastered on the other side!

      Ah, Facebook...I think the day I figure out how to use it wisely and well, without it using me up and ill, they will come up with some new even more mercurial and unmanageable social media tool I will have to work my way around!

      Much love to you both.

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  10. As did countless others, I too missed seeing your beautiful photos, reflecting on your remarkable skills as a writer, and your varied fine arts talents.

    The introduction to this post of yours hit home immediately on two fronts: your birth date is historically significant as is mine, June 25, 1950. My father would often remark to others that my birth was the cause of that war. :)

    Secondly, I hope that someday we can have a third "chance" meeting, (if my memory is correct) be it in Rutland, or another New England location, should your limited travels, opportunities, and desire to resume running take you there. :)

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    1. Dear Anonymous - well, now you've set my fifty year old brain the task of figuring out your identity! So far all I have to work on is that you were born under the sign of Cancer and I have apparently met you only twice before and then by "chance." I think I've narrowed it down, but feel free to release me from further mental exertions by dropping me a line, off-Blogger if you prefer. And thanks so much for all the compliments. It's always good to be missed. Wishing you the best, whoever you may be (and whoever you may strive to become in the new year)!

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    2. Update: I guess those Lumosity brain-training games are working - I just figured out who you are! :)

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    3. Ha Ha Happy New Year!

      After our last meeting outside Tulsa (?), my doctor suggested I forsake treks through the fields and woods at a pace greater than a walk if I valued life. So, I continue to chase friends, demons, and strangers alike down 26.2 miles of Earth's asphalt,concrete,gravel and dirt highways.

      And, while I still try and cover those miles as quickly as possible, it would please me greatly to be able to pull over to the curb one day in Rutland and chat. :)

      An apparently no longer anonymous Cowboy :)

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  11. Laura, dear, so good to see you! I will do my best not to stay away again for so long! Much love to you.

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  12. Dear Gabriella... Do you can imagine that i Was thinking to deleted my blog... But finally i decided to jeep forward With it, it's like home, i post now not often, but it's nice out blog world

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  13. Wishing you a beautiful 2013, Gabriella. How lovely of you to give of yourself, in all the ways that you do. Your thoughts and presence here are a gift as well. :)

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    1. Thanks, you! I really need to get caught up with blogs - I haven't checked yours out in so long, and always found such inspiration there. Hope all is well and 2013 proves to be all you desire and deserve and more!

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  14. As all the other said already; you are a gift dear Gabriella and never forgotten. I haven't been on Blogger for such a long time, but i will not delete it or give it up just because of my blogger friends like yourself. And althoug lots of them are on FB too, a blog is-feels more personal.
    We already are two months further in this new year and i hope that everything will be great for you.
    xoxo

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    1. Dear Monica - thanks for your comment. I know what you mean about Blogger - it does seem to be a special means, sometimes the only means, of communicating with certain friends in a meaningful way, so, I too, will never give it up completely! Hope 2013 has been good to you so far.

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